So, they finally released me from Cedars-Sinai Hospital (in LA) late yesterday, and we got home very late last night. EEG & MRI were normal. Which is good and bad. At least we know I don't have a brain tumor or anything. It is definitely the Lyme. The plan now is to get a neurologist here in town & get a GOOD infectious disease doc out in LA & go out there for treatments & so on.

Since I'll actually be home for the b-day (YAY...And with Doug! Double YAY), I have decided that I am going to skip 29, and just be 30 two years in a row. I think that I have the ability & right to make that call after this past weekend! LOL.

On the ride home last night, and all this morning, I've had a lot of time to think about things. For the first time in my life, I am actually paralyzed with fear. Mind you, I have come to accept my new life as a seizuring Lymie. It's just another obstacle in my life, but that's ok. But there's also a HUGE element of fear. I'm afraid to drive. God forbid I have a seizure while driving! Losing that independence is sad & scary. I'm also afraid to work. I don't want clients to see me seizure. What if I was holding an animal? What if I was trying to place a catheter?! What if I fell & hit my head or got injured because I seized at work? It's really very scary when you have start looking at your life in those terms.

My heart had always gone out to epileptics & others who had seizure disorders, but now I know the TRUE blessing of having a day without seizures! It may seem small, but appreciate those days! Laying in wait, never knowing if you're going to seizure, having that kind of fear - enjoy the fact that you don't have to live like that!

I started my new medication, so we'll see how I do on that. Supposedly, it's a really good drug. All I can do is wait & see.

So, that's life as of right now. I pray you are all well. Happy Monday, world!! :)

One More Profile To Add To The List!!!

Check out my latest profile at booktour.com -

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All 5 of my current titles are available on Amazon!!!

CHECK IT OUT!!!! I just went to check my amazon reviews and look...All 5 of my current titles are there & are available to be ordered! You have to check this out - it is so cool!!! :)

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Don't forget to order your copies of ALL of my books from my amazon associates store!! All 5 titles ARE available!!! Check it out at:

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Call For Submissions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I apologize for my absence as of late. I've been having some medical issues. However, that is not stopping me from writing, or compiling all the works for our anthology, A Survivor's Heart. I ask that if you are a survivor and would like to have your voice be heard, please do not hesitate to submit your writing! We are accepting writings in all genres.

I have had a few people approach me with concern regarding use of their name. You may use your first name, your full name, a pen name, or even anonymous. We do not want anyone to feel uncomfortable or to be put in a dangerous situation.

If you have any questions, or would like to submit some writing, please send it to namid@rapehelp.org

This book is coming out in February 2009, and we'd like to have as many voices heard as possible, so please spread the word!! Thanks!!

THIS Sunday, 9/14 3:30 pm PST/6:30 EST

I will be on Vanilla Heart Publishing's Books With Heart Blog Talk Radio show!! Kimberlee Williams and I have much to discuss - there is some VERY exciting news, and you DEFINITELY do not want to miss this!

Tune in to http://www. blogtalkradio. com/Books-with-Heart

Don't forget to let others know...This is going to be HUGE!!!!! :)

Calling ALL Survivors and Writers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good morning!! I would like to call all survivors for a wonderful project that Vanilla Heart Publishing and I are working on. We are creating an anthology of writings from survivors from around the world!! We're taking stories, poems, and every other genre imaginable! :)

The book will be coming out February 2009. Each contributor will get their own copy of the book!! 50% of all sales goes to charity to help other sexual assault survivors!

Come, let your voice be heard, and help others to heal as well!!

For more information, please e-mail me at namid@rapehelp.org

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Website:
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Welcome to my blog!!!

Hello, everyone! I would like to welcome everyone to my new blog!! It is here that we will discuss my current and future books from Vanilla Heart Publishing, discuss topics relating to sexual assault/abuse and where survivors can find a safe haven.

I would like to thank the wonderful folks at Vanilla Heart Publishing for all their support and hard work! It is more than appreciated!! :)

I would also like to thank my fellow VHP author, Chelle Cordero for inspiring me, and informing me of great websites such as this! :) A million thanks for all your help, Chelle!

Now, without further ado, I would like to take this opportunity to discuss some of my books.

Currently available:

To Dance Amongst the Stars. This book is my personal journey coming from an abusive home, going from one abusive relationship to another, surviving a rape in 2004 by a "friend" and much more. It is a very deep and very personal journey. I wrote it as a therapeutic medium for myself, but also in the hopes that it would inspire and encourage other survivors.

A Guide to Survovrhood. This is a workbook designed to help survivors heal, and find peace in their hearts, and to move forward with their lives. There are various exercises aimed at tackling the various issues that survivors are faced with. It is a wonderful tool to aid in the healing process.

You can purchase one or both books at http://astore.amazon.com/thrapefo-20

Coming Soon:

Secondary Survivors. This book is aimed specifically at friends, family, and loved ones of survivors who are also deeply affected by sexual assault/sexual abuse. This book discusses the various issues that secondary survivors face, as well as how to handle situations when their loved one is experiencing flashbacks and panic attacks resulting from PTSD. This is a very informative and healing tool for anyone who has been touched by sexual assault in any way. Due in late September 2008!

The Strength of a man. This book is aimed at men who have been sexually abused and sexually assaulted. Male survivors face many issues that are specific to them. This book discusses those issues, and helps men to find healing and closure on their assault. Due in late October 2008!

A Man's Guide to Survivorhood. This book is a companion workbook aimed at further tackling the issues that male survivors face. This is a workbook designed to help male survivors heal, and find peace in their hearts, and to move forward with their lives. There are various exercises aimed at tackling the specific issues that male survivors are faced with. It is a wonderful tool to aid in the healing process. Due in late October 2008!

We have several more titles coming out soon, so stay tuned!!!!